GO SEE THE NEW TRANSFORMERS MOVIE!
Myself and the crew worked our asses off on that movie. If you’re feeling super nice stay to see my name in the credits ;) super proud of this one!
View from the new apartment! #InLove #VanCity #DowntownVancouver #dreamteamtakesspectrum @2trina8 🗻🌆
It’s been a while since i’ve posted on here, and what better way than to share what’s been going on in my life recently than from a blog post to strangers online and a way of just writing things down and releasing that information!?
In the past few weeks there have been serious changes in my life, in fact most of these crazy changes happened within just a few days.
I split with my boyfriend, I found a new apartment in downtown Vancouver and I’m currently back in England visiting my family until the end of May. All these things happened just a few days shy of each other and it was like my world was completely turned upside down and I’m still reeling in the effects from that but let’s go from the top:
I was unhappy in my relationship for a long time, as long as I can remember actually and I held onto it for security and for comfort as I was away from all my old friends and family in a country that I was just beginning to call my home. I’ve honestly never been in a relationship where I’ve felt so alone before, that was something that was new to me and I didn’t enjoy it. I’m not one for staying in an unhealthy relationship but for some reason it was so hard for me to just cut the ties and let go. I’ve put it down to being so far from home and holding onto that one thing I had close to me out there in a city I was still new to but in the end I realised it wasn’t worth what I was being put through and I needed to be fair to myself, so I let go.
I don’t care what anyone says, you can tell someone a million times over to just leave and to just move on, but until you are in that situation and feeling those emotions it’s the most difficult thing to do, to just say those simple words and to walk away. It’s absolutely terrifying knowing the minute you’ve said those words theres no turning back, no more of everything you’re used to with that one person, it’s over and you have to eventually accept that.
I’ve always accustomed to change and endured it; but it’s still hard. I know I made the right decision but I’m still moving past what’s happened and saying goodbye to someone that you’ve spent the better part of 2 years getting to know and being with is always going to be difficult and I’m dealing with that in the best way I can. I know what’s best for me and I’m going to be much happier within the next few weeks/months to come.
Secondly, I was in the talks with a good friend of mine about relocating to downtown Vancouver. We both work for the same company and work in the heart of Vancouver so it would make sense for us both to live there! We started apartment hunting and amazingly we found a beautiful, affordable 2 bed, 2 bath apartment in downtown Vancouver. I’m so excited and happy to start a whole new chapter when I return to Vancouver from visiting my family in England! I can’t wait to continue my Canadian Adventure and I’m so excited for who I’ll meet and what I’ll experience along the way!
I’ve also been visiting in England since last Saturday, it’s so lovely to see my parents and see my family and friends. I only get to come back here once a year due to work commitments but when I do it’s nice to see how many things haven’t changed and how many things have. I try and enjoy the time as much as possible with my family as it’s the most valuable thing to me. With any luck by the end of 2014 I’ll be a permanent resident of Canada and it’ll sink in that Vancouver is finally going to be my new home!
I don’t use this blog as much as I used to, or would like to. I’m not sure who is reading this, or who I’m actually talking to right now. I just needed to write these things down, vent them I suppose. I’m not the kinda person who can keep things locked up and I’d say I’m an open book. I want to channel whatever I’m feeling into bettering myself over the next few months. I welcome change and I welcome different emotions, I know things get better with time and I know within a year none of this will even matter. Change is a crazy thing but I love it and I can’t wait to see what the future holds!
Paramount Pictures putting on a private showing for Noah 3D for us, the only one in North America! #LoveMyJob 🎬